3 January 2012

After a long break from the December school break, I am finally resuming my bento-making sessions!

The difference this time round is Ethyl will be in the morning session, and my day starts as early as 4.50am (or even earlier) when I had to prepare her lunch bento as well.


Rilakkuma wanabe ends up looking odd with my generous cocoa powder added!



Brayden also had his bento for the start of the new school year. His favorite Thomas and Friends accompanied him to school!

Waking up early in the morning to prepare bento is really quite an adjustment for me to make. As I will have to sleep after the kids do. Rest is never enough. No, I am not complaining though, I am enjoying making something for my loved ones to make a great start to their day!

Brayden's First Performance

Our baby has grown up! He had his first performance on 2 December 2011. We were all excited and full of anticipation for this day.

As usual, the worrisome me worries about many things before this day arrived.

Will he have stage fright?

Will he forget his dancing steps when he sees so many audiences and back out?

Will he not perform when he sees us?

Will he cry on stage?

Not only the worrisome Mommy worries, even the jiejie and Daddy are worried too! They asked me the same questions as well.

I reminded them he is a big boy and will definitely do well. I told them and myself to have faith in him.

Full of anticipation, we sat patiently waiting for the N1 to perform. *Drum roll* Finally, we saw him on stage! He did us proud by doing perfect and was one of the best "bum-shaker" in his performance!

It was a magnificent performance put up by the school! We thoroughly enjoyed the whole concert!

Our baby has grown up! Well done Son! We are so proud of you!

Late...

Man came back almost 12 midnight last night. Last minute rush, he and his 2 peers got to make sure all work is done to ensure the aircraft is safe to take off.

However tired and sleepy I was, I stayed up as I would love to chat with him, even if it's for a minute. This is the least I can do as a wife, to be there for him and listening, updating and simply; be around.

Some friends asked why is he always so busy? They do not understand as their better half holds an office desk job that gives them weekend as family day. I used to mind and envy them. I guess I may still do at times, but I have also accepted that this is his job - staggered shift.

More than once, I ever asked myself "Can I be the kind of wife he needed?" No answer required, as this is a role I have to play - a wife, a mom and a pillar to the household.

Through the years, I have accepted my fate that I will be left very much independent to handle most things myself. I am not complaining. I am thankful. Despite being so busy, he is always there to render me his support and a shoulder for me to cry on.

This pasture that I have chosen 9 years ago is not the greenest, however is the most reliable piece I can ever asked for.

My temperament has also mellowed because of my current plight. Having children who is gradually understanding the Dad's job nature also helped as we will encourage each other when his presence is missed.

He always thank me for being there taking care of our lil ones and making sure they do not miss the fun of not having a Dad around. Little does he know, he is a super star to his kids, and an unsung hero of mine.

Love lots Dear!

Primary One Ended!!!

Now I can understand how some friends felt when they shared their stress and anxiety when their kids progressed to primary school, especially so during the examination period.

True enough, I felt as if I am in a pressure cooker especially the month during her final year assessment.

Glad thing is, this year has been a great year for us. For Ethyl has been working hard on her own of course it's packaged with my nagging and reminders), yet we had a good year.

She may not have top the P1 cohort, but there are subjects that she aces.

I hope she finds learning as interesting and remains so enthusiastic and a lil more diligent for P2.

She shall for now enjoy her birthday weekend and we will work hard together in Y2012!

It's a Blessing

It's mixed feelings for me on an early Friday morning.

The loss of 2 pretty girls.

To think that I even thought of doing silly thing to my lil Bud. However, I am glad I only have such thought, never the courage.

I will love my kids with my life. They are my everything!

I will also remember, I am a Mother!

Mom's Dark Side

I love my kids.

When faced with stress and some personal issues, I cannot believe I harbored and evil thought - remove this accidental #3.

This set me into some kind of low spirits. No, I have yet sunk into depression (at least I thought), I am a rather strong willed person hence I felt depression will leave me alone at least for now.

Deep in my heart, I know I can't bear. Hubby didn't try to talk to me about this after knowing my thoughts, he merely replied my whatsapp saying it is a little to late as baby has formed into human shape and told me not to do things that will make me regret for the whole of my life.

Till today, I still do get a little emotional. Just because he is so busy with work and unable to have a proper chat with me and trying to find out how I am doing in this pregnancy or even how my days are. I began wondering has this got to do with age catching up? I was never like this in my earlier pregnancies.

I can't talk to many people about this. Only when chatting with a few closer girlfriends, I do reveal my thoughts and some emotional struggles. Indeed it is a way to let go of some steam, however it is never enough comparing it to talking to him.

Seeing how stressful he gets from work, I can't bear to load him with more stress. I can only bear all these quietly.

Will he ever know? I really doubt so. It has probably slipped his mind that I used to pen down my thoughts on this cyber space.

Not to worry, I won't remove the baby. I have decided to take on this journey bravely with my baby. A Mom has to be able to protect their offspring and not hurt them.

Bravely I will...set a positive example for my kids.

Busy In the Kitchen

I re-ignited my hobby in bento-making lately after a group of friends started making bento for their loved ones.





The above are some creations I have made over the weeks.

Term 4 is rather tiring for me. Besides progressing into trimester 2, Ethyl has netball practices twice a week, hence I got to send her bento during her one-hour break before the school starts.

Time is never enough for me. However I do enjoy the time I spent with them right now :-)